Build A Castle In The Air

A lot of hope...

A lot of dream...

.............And............

A lot of desire...

I still cannot grasp it...

...............And.............

Everything seems like runaway from me...

Everything seems like just a fantasy of mine...

I still cannot make a good decision of my life...

Still become a woman that always think about others...

........Before.......

I think about myself...

Still feeling that others opinion & gudgement is better than me...

Still thinking that I must prioritize everyone around me without knowing what I want...

I still wonder...

When my dream will comes true???

When I will get what I want in my life???

Still hoping the same thing everyday...

.........And.......

Still pray that happiness will always stay on my side...

.................But.................

Still don't know what I want in my life...

Searching for something that even I also don't know...

.........Whether........

It is exist or not... 

When Tomorrow Comes

Tomorrow...

I still can't imagine...

What will happen to me...

Its makes me feel afraid to face it...

It makes me think...

What can I do tomorrow??

What I will  be??

What I'm doing??

Tomorrow...

It makes me feel doubt...

About my journey of life...

About the path that I'll take...

And.......

About the path that I'd taken...

Tomorrow...

Can I create my own dreams??

Can I search my courage??

Can I call my spirit??

Can I become a better person??

And.........

Can I be the best from others?? 

Tomorrow...

I'm still waiting for the rainbow...

Even.........

I'd always surrounded with raining...

I'm still wondering...

When the rainbow will appear in front of me??

"Friend" For Nothing

Many people said...

It's good to make many friends...

Because.....

You'll be a luckiest person in the world...

Unfortunately....

Some people feel ungrateful with it...

Maybe...

Because they feel...

They're good than others...

They're clever & smart than others...

They're riches than others...

They're prettiest / handsome than others...

It's important to feel like that????

Some poetry by J.K.MacManus stated;

A friend....

Is someone we turn to,when our spirit need a lift...

Someone we treasure for our friendship just like a gift...

Someone who fill our lives with beauty, joy & grace...

And.......

Makes the whole we live in a better & happier place...

Does this people know about the meaning of "friend"???

State Of Confusing

Confuse???

What make me confuse...

I'm also don't know...

Still can't find the root cause of it...

May be I'm confuse with my life...

Maybe I'm confuse with someone...

And...

Maybe I'm confuse with myself...

I'm also don't know what happen to me...

Am I is a good person???

Am I busybody person???

Am I is the person that always making everybody feel annoyed???

Or....

Making everybody feel irritated???

I'm also don't know about it...

I'm trying to be a good person...

Trying to be a person that can't make everybody feel annoyed...

Like trying not to make a gap between all those relationship...

But...

Still not worth...

Then...

I'd realized what my best friend had said to me before...

"Making a gap between relationship is better...

Because we don't want to get hurt & hurting people around us...

Once you trust & they stab back on you...

You will not getting up again..."

But I still confuse...

If I do like that...

Its means that I'm not being a good friend...

But for good sake...

I'll not getting hurt & not hurting the person that I love...

But...

I don't want to do like that...

That's not my way...

I making all those relationship based on TRUST...

Trusting people around me...

I don't know what is the best decision...

I'm still in a state of confusing...:(
Actually,this post had been wrote on 11 May 2011...

Reality Or Fantasy

Now.......

I'm Still Doubt With Myself...

Wether I Can Be A Better Person Or Not...

I Don't Know About It...

When I Was Young...

My Family Had Done Everything For Me...

They Help Me To Choose My School...

They Help Me To Choose My Tuition...

They Help Me To Choose Which College Is Suitable For Me...

Even, They Help Me To Choose Which Course I Must Take...

Everything Is According The Path That Had Been Choosen For Me...

Sometimes...

My Heart Feel Burden Of It...

Because...

I Don't Know What I Want...

What I'd dream when I was young is different with what had happened in my life...

It seems like all childhood dream will disappear like that...

I like Math rather than Bio...

But at last.....

I'd participated in Paramedic course rather than Pure Maths...

I still thinking...

Whether that had happened to me is reality or fantasy only...

Still not sure...

Which path I'll taken...

Long Way

When the time passed by...

It makes me thinking and thinking again...

Whether my decision is important rather than others...

Whether I can live in my own way....

Suddenly........

I've realize that I've responsibility to take...

It had make me think that I still don't get what I want in life...

I still don't know my desire...

It makes me feel like I'm lost in my own world...

When I closed my eyes...

I always dreaming that I've good job, beautiful house, great car & happy family...

And many people rely on me...

But...........

I'd doubt with it...

Whether it just only my fantasy or happen in my real life...

Or am I lost in my own world???

Like I always said before...

Life is a journey that never had ending...

Sometimes we find our right way...

And........

Sometime we are a bit lost...

This time...

I'd make decision...

I'll just hear the voices of my heart...

I'll believe on myself to walk on my own journey...

I'll try to accomplish what I'd been dreaming when I closed my eyes...

I don't want to make it only just a dream...

I promise to myself that I wouldn't disappointing myself anymore...

Even though I must face a lot of difficulties...

Even though there is a long way to get through of it...

My strong feeling always said that I can see my own dreams again...

And it will become a reality... 

Even this journey take time...

And it will change my previous life...

I'll walk forward and never turn back again...

Although it is a long way...

~~The Gift Of Love~~

The Gift Of Love...

Something In Life...

That Can Last Forever...

Something In Life...

That Is Very Pure & Sweet...

And........

Its Like The Sun Above The Desert...

Like Want Your Soul...

Without Knowing The Seasons...

Whether In Autumn, In Summer...

In Winter Or The Spring...

The Gift Of Love...

Its Like A Miracle...

Something In Life..

That Always Cheering...

And......

It's All We Need...

The Gift Of Love...

Just Like A River...

That Keep On Flow With Endlessly...

Can Make A Different...

Can Change The World...

And...

How Precious It Can Be...

The Gift Of Love...

That Make Us Become Appreciate...

A Minute Of Lifetime...

Through Good Times & Bad Times...

For Our Love One...

I Will Forget You (CN Blue)

I will forget you...

Starting today...

I don't know you...

I have never seen you...

We never even walked pass each other...

I'm okay...

I forgot everything...

I'm happy with my busy life...

I've meet a great person too...

Love is always like this...

It fades away after some time...

Can't even remember it...

Ohh.....

When love goes away...

Another love comes again...

It definitely will...

Even if it hurts now...

It will hear a little later...

It will forget...

I will too...

It's not difficult...

I will forget everything after today...

I'm just getting used to my changed life...

Oh.....No......

I will erase everything...

I definitly will...

When love goes away...

Another love comes again...

It definitely will...

Even if tears fall now...

I will smile a little later...

I will (now)...Forget you (now)...

Just like a wound heals...

.......I Mean It.......

Its Time To Strive For Success!!!

Time To Change For Everything...

I Hope,It Will Go With Smoothly...

I Need To Be More Confident...

More Hardworking...

And.............

More Brave Than Before...

Hopefully Evrything Will Be Ok...

I Must Be Strong To Do My Research...

Pray For Me....:)

A Journey To Begin

Its Hard To Know...

What Is Life???

How We Can Face Our Journey Of Life???

Which Path We Will Take???

And...........

All Those Things Like A Questions...

Without Having Any Answers...

To Get Through Our Journey...

Sometimes It's Easy...

Sometimes Tough...

Sometimes It's Smooth...

Sometimes Rough...

And............

Sometimes It's Crest...

Sometimes Trough...

Sometimes It's Empty...

Sometimes Enough...

We All Have Different Journeys...

Different Paths Along the Way...

But..............

We Are Never Meant To Stay...

Because Our Destination Is A place...

Far Greater Than We Know...

To Begin This Journey...

Have Our Faith In It...

By Trusting On Yourself...

By Doing The Right Things...

By Not Wasting Your Time...

Because.........

You Will Not Regret When It Is Had Happened...

Its My Birthday!!!!

Again....

New Year is coming around...

My birthday is on first January...

The wonderful moment in my life is...

When my bestie, Aziah, had call me!!!

Wish me happy birthday...

The first message that I receive is...

From my best friend at matriculation!!!

A message in my phone from sya....

She study at UKM as a dentist's student...

Another message that I receive is...

From my beloved x-rummate!!!

She wish in facebook...

At the morning...

My beloved mom sing a birthday songs to me!!!

hehehe....

Thanks to my mom and all my friends...
For the wishes that everyone had give to me...
For the messages that everyone have send to me...
I appreciate it and happy because of it...

I spend my birthday time with shopping...

I went shopping with my siblings...

I spend my birthday for this year with my family...

Before this....

I will spent it with my best friends...


A greeting for my Birthday!!!!!