State Of Confusing

Confuse???

What make me confuse...

I'm also don't know...

Still can't find the root cause of it...

May be I'm confuse with my life...

Maybe I'm confuse with someone...

And...

Maybe I'm confuse with myself...

I'm also don't know what happen to me...

Am I is a good person???

Am I busybody person???

Am I is the person that always making everybody feel annoyed???

Or....

Making everybody feel irritated???

I'm also don't know about it...

I'm trying to be a good person...

Trying to be a person that can't make everybody feel annoyed...

Like trying not to make a gap between all those relationship...

But...

Still not worth...

Then...

I'd realized what my best friend had said to me before...

"Making a gap between relationship is better...

Because we don't want to get hurt & hurting people around us...

Once you trust & they stab back on you...

You will not getting up again..."

But I still confuse...

If I do like that...

Its means that I'm not being a good friend...

But for good sake...

I'll not getting hurt & not hurting the person that I love...

But...

I don't want to do like that...

That's not my way...

I making all those relationship based on TRUST...

Trusting people around me...

I don't know what is the best decision...

I'm still in a state of confusing...:(
Actually,this post had been wrote on 11 May 2011...

Reality Or Fantasy

Now.......

I'm Still Doubt With Myself...

Wether I Can Be A Better Person Or Not...

I Don't Know About It...

When I Was Young...

My Family Had Done Everything For Me...

They Help Me To Choose My School...

They Help Me To Choose My Tuition...

They Help Me To Choose Which College Is Suitable For Me...

Even, They Help Me To Choose Which Course I Must Take...

Everything Is According The Path That Had Been Choosen For Me...

Sometimes...

My Heart Feel Burden Of It...

Because...

I Don't Know What I Want...

What I'd dream when I was young is different with what had happened in my life...

It seems like all childhood dream will disappear like that...

I like Math rather than Bio...

But at last.....

I'd participated in Paramedic course rather than Pure Maths...

I still thinking...

Whether that had happened to me is reality or fantasy only...

Still not sure...

Which path I'll taken...

Long Way

When the time passed by...

It makes me thinking and thinking again...

Whether my decision is important rather than others...

Whether I can live in my own way....

Suddenly........

I've realize that I've responsibility to take...

It had make me think that I still don't get what I want in life...

I still don't know my desire...

It makes me feel like I'm lost in my own world...

When I closed my eyes...

I always dreaming that I've good job, beautiful house, great car & happy family...

And many people rely on me...

But...........

I'd doubt with it...

Whether it just only my fantasy or happen in my real life...

Or am I lost in my own world???

Like I always said before...

Life is a journey that never had ending...

Sometimes we find our right way...

And........

Sometime we are a bit lost...

This time...

I'd make decision...

I'll just hear the voices of my heart...

I'll believe on myself to walk on my own journey...

I'll try to accomplish what I'd been dreaming when I closed my eyes...

I don't want to make it only just a dream...

I promise to myself that I wouldn't disappointing myself anymore...

Even though I must face a lot of difficulties...

Even though there is a long way to get through of it...

My strong feeling always said that I can see my own dreams again...

And it will become a reality... 

Even this journey take time...

And it will change my previous life...

I'll walk forward and never turn back again...

Although it is a long way...