keep goin on wif my life...

da lama da x tulis dlm nie...bukan xde ms,tp mls nk tulis..huhu...

jadik pemls lak farahin skang nie..huhu..

hri nie birthday aku..so,azam bru utk taun nie...aku just concentrate wif my study...

makin ssh weh...ingtkn makin senang blajo...ms pun da xde utk enjoy my life...
org yg buatkan aku happy ialah....my best frenz....hehe..

but,i'm happy wif my life although theres a lot of difficulties i've been through as a student in paramedic course n having trouble wif my coursemate....huhu...

hope my life will be better after all the hard time that i've been through...

huhuhu...

my life........

cam biaser..takde perubahan..skang nie aku da dapat lesen kete..
yahooooooo!!!!!!!!!

cuma tak try bawa lagi..huhu...malas............hehe....
eh bukan....takde mase.....

poyo tul.......

Alahai....Ape Larr Nasib Badan.....

sejak akhir2 nie,aku asyik sakit jer.....

2 or 3 hari nie...

aku ada probs ngan my body system aku plak..huhuhu...

macam2 betul rrrr..

tapi memng aku mkn tak tetap pun kat kolej..

tak ikut ms langsung...

kadang2,tk mkn langsung pun ada..

al maklumlah,org mls turun bawah utk beli mknn...

skali turun,amik ko!!!!!!!!!

berlmbk2 org kirim suh beli mknn utk diorg skali..

ingat ape!!!!!!!

aku nie org delivery cam kat m'cd kew???

ish3...tak patut betul.......

tapi,kalau aku makan plak..

bedal mknn pedas terus..

nak wat camner,da ckp jgn wat pedas....

org kedai pegi wat mskn pedas gak..

alamatnyer,aku terpaksa telan jer lar.....

dah lar memng aku tak bleh mkn makann pedas..

skali balik umah,free2!!!!!!!!

sakit terus,sampai merengkok2.....

tapi semlm aku dh pegi klinik....

so,just kena ikut time utk mkn ubat jer lar....

tpi,kena hati2 dlm pilih makanan...

tapi baru tahap pertama....

tk teruk sngt rr..

kalau terlewt jumpa doktor maybe makin teruk n bleh smpai tahap bahaya....huhu...

Now and forever

Should I wait for him or forget him?????
I'm not sure about my decision............
I'm missing him badly.........
What I'm goin to do now?????
He give me a lot of sweet memories...
The memories that I'll never forget in my life...
He teach me to be independent...
Teach me on how to caring n loving other people...
Teach me on how to appreciate other people....
I'm proud of him n admired him...
Because of his character......
He is hard to forget n he can make me feel touching...
I dunno why but he is everything to me.....
Till now and forever...

Now n Forever...........

Time goes by,

Every minutes that I wait for him also pass like that,

Without any notice.......

My heart still cannot forget him.....

I'm also dunt know what is special about him....

Is he handsome?

Is he gentleman?

Is he a best student?

Is he is my prince charming that i've wait for a long time ago?

or...

He only the frog prince......

I'm also dunt know about that...

But.....

For now n forever....

I'm not sure whether I can forget him...

Forget him mean that I'll forget all my precious memories in my life....

The memories that had make me become what I'm today...

The memories that make me become brave n trust on myself..

The memories that make me learn to appreciate people around me...

The memories that encourage me to do what I wanna do in my life...

Is it wrong to remember him?

My last decision is.........

I'll wait for him...

I know that can make me suffer..

But.....

I'm stiil doubt whether I can face the truth that he is not my prince charming....

My future.........

I've made decision 2 go on like this...
First....
keje aku dh berlambak dah skang nie...
skang nie,dh nk start cuti sem 4...
So....
maybe aku akan busy sangt ngn amik lesen kete aku yg tak habis2 lgi..huhu..
jadi surirumah separuh masa kat umah sendiri..hehe..
Coz....
skang nie sekolh tk cuti lgi kan..
So.........
aku yg jadi tukang msk kat umah n cleaner..
kadang2,aku kuar jln2 ngan kwn2 lama klau dh boring tahap cipan berkurung dlm rumah..
huhuhu...
2ndly,
tungg masuk sem baru plak..
seblm tu,aku kena ready utk sem baru nie coz aku amik work rehab utk sem 5...
kena review balik ape yg aku dh bljr ms sem 2 dulu..
yg paling penting skali....
aku kena blajar ckp mandarin masa cuti nie...
senng skit utk aku catch up utk sem 5 nie...
dah lar kena amik 7 subjek utk sem depan termasuk ngn mandarin n sensory integration..
huhuhuhu...

My life.........

I 'll try to forget him...

Try to live without remember about him..

And now...

I'm happy with my life..

I'm just thinking about my family, study and future...

I'll make him as my sweet memories..

Although it can make me feel sad about that....

I'm happy wif my life...

Coz....

I dunt feel that I need a guys standing by my side....

I'm just need a friends to stand on my side...

I'm glad coz I have many friends that always love and take care about me...

I luv u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

start wif my new life!!!!!!!!!

I've decide 2 forget about him..
Maybe it is the best decision 4 me..
I'll try 2 forget about him...
But...
It's hard 2 do that becoz I love him...
He is my first love...
But..
Maybe he is not the last one...
I'm happy wif my life...
Without having him beside me...
Coz...
I suppose 2 concentrate wif my study...
But...
I'm still missing him..huhuhu...

tell the truth...

maybe good or maybe bad..
but...
just 2 know about his feeling..
maybe I'm afraid 2 do that..
But....
its worthless 2 do that..
coz...
he will know about my feeling..
maybe he will accept or maybe reject me..
or...
maybe he will think about it n try 2 know me better than before..
in my heart...
I'll always hoping that he know me..
try 2 accept me as his friend first..
before knowing me better..
it is worthless coz he accept me..
without angry wif me..
but...
want 2 know more on how I know him..
he appreciate about my feeling towards him..
but...
many people said that I dont need 2 try hoping on him..
coz...
I dont know about his true feeling..
maybe its true..
maybe I'll accept this fate..
whether 2 be wif him or not..
I'm always hoping that he is happy wif his life..
it is doesn't mean that I had give up on him..
but...
just want him 2 be happy wif the person that love him more than I do..
Thats my true feeling..
frankly from my heart..

Tell him or not???

Today....
I'll try 2 tell him about my feelin....
Is it ok do that???
Is it better 2 write message 2 him???
A message about my feelin....
I'm really2 not sure 2 do that...huhuhu..
But...
I rather wait 4 him...
I rather see him from far....
Coz....
It's hard 2 tell the truth than telling a lie....
But...
It's better 2 tell him now rather than telling him when he really2 know me....
I just want him 2 be happy with his life...
Doesn't mean that I want him 2 be my lover...
I want 2 see him happy with his life..
With people that he loves....
Just a simple hope...
It doesn't mean that I don't love him...
Because I love him...
I want him 2 be happy....
May be I'll feel sad if he had someone special beside him..
But..
It doesn't matter coz I always want him to be the best...
To find someone that really2 love him...
I rather wait him...
If we are mean 2gether...
I 'll accept him....
Coz.....
He is my first love.....

Assignment ohhhh assignment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

banyk sangt assignment!!!!!!!!!huhuhu....
esok ada psy presentation plak....
pastu............
2 minggu lgi da start praktikal..........
camner nie?????????
assignment en.halil pun berlambak gak rrrrrr......
nie larrr kehidupan aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pkir2......
ape ke mendenyer aku nk wat dulu nihhh....
huhuhu......

2 be myself....

I want 2 be myself....
But I'm afraid...
Afraid 2 be myself...
Whether everybody can accept me or not...
I don't have any courage 2 be brave...
Brave 2 make a good decision...
Brave 2 be stick in my own opinion..
Brave 2 speak 2 tell the truth...
I'm not a good decision maker...
Neither good in giving advice nor giving commitment....
But I can be a good listener...
I want the person that like me can accept me on what I'm...
N I also want the person that I like can accept me...
Maybe I'm not good in words...
But....
Can judge me through my heart....

sumthin special about him.....

First time meet him...
But, rasa pelik skit coz jumpa kat padang..huhuhu...
Masa ngah KAWAD plak tu!!!!!
My first perception is...
''Apehal mamat nie!!!!''
After a half year knowing him at 2007...
We become friends...
But not a close friends...
Everythin change wif suddenly...
Without knowing that i had special feelin about him...
Without telling him...
Time goes by, we had go through our own journey of life...
But I still missin him..
For 2 years I wait him....
Hoping that he also had a feelin for me....
Until I've decide to forget him..
Suddenly.....
He appear without any notice......
Make my heart happy again n make me still hoppin for him...
Although we just a friends....
Am I had made a better decision to wait him again???
or...
To accept another person that try to be in my heart???

Just wanna wait....

I've nothin to do n nothin can be done.....

I'm happy wif my life...
Although,he will not be in my side...
Although,he dunno about my feelin...
I'm happy to see him from far...
Rather than see him close with me...
Coz....
I'm not sure about what will happen in our future...
N all I can do is.....

Just wanna wait.....